I am Blessed....
I sometimes get such chances, as today, I am at somebody's house, doing the night seva at an Akhand Paath.(listening to the Paath, waking the Gyani jee's up, whose duty is comming up, making tea/coffee for those who get on/off Scriptral reading duty...etc...)
But there is something about my duty , that makes me think that it is not a seva.... Generally, doing a thing like this is a great opportunity to earn The Guru's Khushi (Happiness/ pleasing Guru),
I am happy that the Guru gives me such chances and blessings, but do I really deserve them?... do I perform my duty well enough to be offered such blessings this often?
Well, last time was better, and it was a few months ago..... I was at least hearing the paath with all my heart..... unlike today, I guess I am a bit tired and this was like last minute notice, so I am under-slept too....I can do all my duties, but I guess I am just getting moody towards the end now....
I get scared at the fact that I am so moody about things.... I really am, and my biggest fear is what if a day of the sort, comes to my life when I loose interest for Sikhi...
Guys, Here is a link to the PDF of this really cool book about Sikhi, written in simple English, called Bandgi Nama, I've been reading it for a while, and I've not yet finished it, but it is basically almost every thing we wanna know as Curious keeners seeking Sikhism!
Check it out, read if you can..... I'm sure you'll be glad you read it, if you do!